Tuesday, February 24, 2009

thinking of you...

during the night a little while ago, i'd wake up to music vidoes playing on the T.V (well actually cuz the heat was set to HELL and i couldnt breathe). Not too sure what channel... maybe VH1? anywho... they would play the same mix of music videos and i pretty much almost memorized what was HOT that particular week.

one video/ artist caught my eye. I've seen her before in videos much more up beat and less serious but THIS one song of hers really hit me. I've never stopped to realize how much i could relate to this song until it was like brutally beat into my memory until i woke up to change the channel. Katy Perry gets some shine on my blog.
Katy Perry - Thinking of you. Def my new jam of the week... ehh. maybe not week but it def fits my mood. the video isn't half bad either. she is actually pretty to me... which makes it easier to watch ( not that i am a lesbian but i can admit that some females are very pretty)...

her shoe by the way are killer... kinda reminding me of the pair i just bought. :)
my point is... listen to the song. Katy may have something on her album for you.
{my 2 fav lines}
"Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed"
"...How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test"

Saturday, February 21, 2009

on my scene

why? i'm the RULE and never the EXCEPTION. I understand. thats all I do is understand. thats where i think i failing.
by no means do i think that my like for someone will conquer all but it def make me think twice. i have things that i look for and things i require in a guy but to call it sooo early is ridiculous to me. i can't stand that im so understanding and let things slide because i really believe, trust and have feelings for that person.
so for every person that doesnt meet my criteria in my box i must cut them out... i couldn't possibly take them seriously or consider myself being with them. thats how it goes now a days... I think i'ma keep doing what i'm doing tho. results haven't always been great or rewarding but why change it now? i can tweek a couple things here and there but i give chances. make mistakes. learn from them. some people are stuck in their ways & refuse to even see what they might be doing wrong... or how they might be hurting the other person. i'm not perfect but i try. its one thing to call someone inconsiderate when they themselves are a great example.

i hate to think that i wasted my time. my smiles. laughs & gas on someone. i hate to think that my point of view on things just wasnt good enough. never understood. your POV... trash. what i'm writing is trash to some... but its how i feel. by no means is this a man bashing post... its only OPINION.
i like u. liked ... ehhh? cant even call it now.
you make time for people that you want to see. simple. i know i do & i can. not a problem.

sometimes relationships get ill. hints the song* luv the roots.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

bittersweet valentine

happy valentines day.

its always full of love, kisses, sex, candy, candles... blah blah blah. i hope all the lovers in the world found their happiness. on my way to finding mine i suppose i think you can never be 100% happy. maybe... its can be possible but so far not for a girl lke me. dont get me wrong i'm happy but golly can i be totally confused and fustrated. but nonetheless still happy... my face lights up and i have a glow but not as often as i'd like.

just some thoughts...

p.s i found my valentine in an unexpected place. well 3 places really... life cant be too bad. :)

Thursday, February 12, 2009

i'm it... always

dont you hate it when you feel like you are always the problem? tell me about it. it's so unintentional its not even a joke. idk how my mind blanks out very specific important things to do... which in the end make me look a certain type of way that i hate! i'd like to believe that i'm a caring person but now i feel like my actions are portraying something else... someone else that i hope i did not turn out to be.
ehhh, i hate it. i dont like people being disappointed, upset, or just feel any type of way thats negative towards me. especially people i care about...

i hate it. i gotta like go to a self help workshop or something.

- besides that i hope to have a wonderful weekend. =)

Saturday, February 7, 2009

marc & chloe

MARC JACOBS 'Kari' Quilted Satchel
( only available on preorder...)

MARC JACOBS 'Stam' Metallic Leather Satchel
( this just makes the classic even better)

ChloƩ 'Paddington' Leather Padlock Satchel
( i just love the color... yum)
bored. but this is what i dream of... :) :) :)


yup, i said it. i'm in love.

i love shoes. not soo much a funky crazy shoe but if its ME then its a must.

Thursday, February 5, 2009


so i was actually having a discussion with this a certain someone about females and certain characteristics that they have. from this convo i've gained information at least from one perspective that black women are very stubborn and confrontational. they have bad attitudes and just problems with men in general. I tried to argue that if guys weren't such animals then MAYBE attitudes and such would change. but i didnt win that one. :( being submissive also was another thing brought up. I always thought i knew what that meant but i had to look it up again just to make sure i was even on the right track. 

inclined or willing to submit to orders or wishes of others or showing such inclination; "submissive servants"; "a submissive reply"; "replacing troublemakers with more submissive people"

hmmm... well for some reason that kind of bothers me in a sense. when looking this word up i found that when the source went to use it in a sentence they would relate it to a slave. i'm no slave or servant so maybe they should find another way to use that word in a sentence. i suppose that i would have to step foot in that "bin" and say that i have a problem with submissiveness because when I was, i got played. so its only natural that i women, especially black women, would have their guards up or have an issue with it. once the walls go down and people get comfortable things change. most times it goes from good to ok... then ok to bad... then bad to slashing tires. HAHA, i'm kiddin but you catch my drift. my point is that, while having this convo it reminded me of this little story my old roomie posted. it's very true. so enjoy.

In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the
question "What kind of man are you looking for?" She sat quietly for a
moment before looking him in the eye and asking, "Do you really want to
know?" Reluctantly, he said, "Yes." She began to expound... "As a woman
in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for
me that I can't do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my
household without the help of any man...or woman for that matter. I am
in the position to ask, "What can you bring to the table?"

The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to
money. She quickly corrected his thought and stated, "I am not referring
to money." "I need something more". "I need a man who is striving for
perfection in every aspect of life." He sat back in his chair, folded
his arms, and asked her to explain. She said, "I am looking for someone
who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and
mental stimulation." "I don't need a simple-minded man." "I am looking
for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don't
need to be unequally yoked...believers mixed with unbelievers is a
recipe for disaster." "I need a man who is striving for perfection
financially because I don't need a financial burden." "I am looking for
someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a
woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded." "I am looking for someone
who I can respect." "In order to be submissive, I must respect him." "I
cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business." "I
have no problem being submissive...he just has to be worthy." "God made
woman to be a helpmate for man." "I can't help a man if he can't help

When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a
puzzled look on his face. He said, "You are asking a lot." She replied,
"I'm worth a lot."

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

25 randoms

25 randoms things... i mean i feel like if i dont do it i'll just be tagged until i go insane...

  1. i love the color orange. i dont really wear it but if it's an option i'll get it

  2. i think that the blackberry is arguably the BEST phone ever made (not a fan of the storm but its aight). I mean email, text, web and BBM !

  3. I LOVE BBM!! ( if you dont know what it is, GET HIP)

  4. i'm a dog lover.

  5. hate seafood. can't eat it. dont want to eat it. i think crabs are stupid.
  6. i love to see what my funeral would be like if i passed away. would people cry? who would be happy? what would someone want to tell me now that i'm dead that they couldn't tell me when i was alive.
  7. i think kids are one of God's greatest gifts. i love being around them and teaching them . watching them grow, learn and develop life skills are so rewarding to me.

  8. i think i'm def blessed physically. i think some girls are ugly and some are aight. I'll admit if i think a female is pretty but yeah... thats just me

  9. i hate double standards and whoever made them up is chauvinistic fool.

  10. i order cheesy bread and plain wings from dominios ALL THE TIME!

  11. i hate my feet.

  12. i want to get a long weave one day. i just want to try it but i'm scared people will notice OR it wont feel like my real hair.

  13. i wish i was a phenomenal writer.

  14. i secretly wish that i could trade in my light brown eyes for a singing voice. if i could sing i wouldn't even talk anymore, i would sing EVERYTHING!

  15. i want a t.v show. the life of my friends and i are just too funny sometimes and sometimes it feels like the world is going to end but we'd be more relatable than THE HILLS and THE CITY put together. screw Baldwin Hills.

  16. i'm not the favorite in my family.

  17. i pray every night. sometimes i forget but i'm only human

  18. i WILL get an Audi one day

  19. i wish i could speak my nationalities languages, i feel like a failure sometimes because i can't really represent for my cultures.

  20. im great with my hands. i love making things... love art class, painting, scarp booking and flower arranging.

  21. when people pass away i feel bad because i want to ask someone who was close to them or who was there EXACTLY what happened. it's like i'm never satisfied with the answers they give.

  22. i want a six pack. :)

  23. i think no matter how a person looks everyone is most beautiful when they are smiling. I LOVE it.

  24. i hate getting my eyebrows done because they will be fine for like a month then the bitch has to mess them up. when you mess with my eyebrows it hurts my heart! LITERALLY

  25. i have a very sarcastic nature about me. i can't help it tho...