This story is pretty fresh and is still unfolding as I type. I just wanted to take the time out to send positive thoughts and prayers out to the whole VT family and friends. It's holiday time, finals time and the end of the year which makes this a very sensitive time for everyone. I hope that everyone can stay strong and that justice is served for this unsightly crime. ♥

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Happy Thanksgiving to everyone! This year by far has been my most favorite EVER! What I'm thankful for this year is what I'm thankful for every year but I really & truly meant it. During prayer I was really trying to hold back my tears of joy (big sap I know). Life is precious man, something to not be taken for granted. you dont get it by default every day, its something that is given to you. Now if you dont believe in a higher power, thats your business. But my God, is a wonderful God who blesses me every single day. So for that itself, everyday that I get to open my eyes, I am thankful for.

This years Thanksgiving dinner was a little different than any other one I've had. Maybe because I'm older and I can talk to my parents about certain things, we relate more and they understand me more. Especially my dear mother. I think now more than ever I understand and respect her so much. We got back and fourth with each other, bicker and disagree but all and all, I KNOW she loves me and I love her. This year, I just wanted people to get to be around such wonderful person. My best friend/sister came to dinner which made me so happy, we were destined to be friends. I'm convinced, I don't know what I would do without her. Then there were 2 special guests, who will remain anonymous, that decided to join my family and I as well. At first i thought things might get awkward at some point but they didn't. We watched the game, prayed enjoyed the beginning of our meal until some more of my family arrived. I had no idea they were coming and was reminded on how blessed I really am
I'm not sure what I did to deserve such a wonderful dinner, I really don't. Everyone got along, some people got grilled, some ppl were forced to eat by my mother, others finished a bottle basically by themselves (smh, ok ok it was me)! I couldnt wait for people to ask me how my Thanksgiving was so I could tell them it was wonderful, smile to myself, and think of how blessed I am.

tell me what you think...

hey everyone.
I def said i was back like a couple months ago and then turns out, i haven't blogged since. GO ME right? To be totally honest, I'm still stick in the Blackberry world, if i was #teamiphone i could easily blog and post more pictures! In due time my friends.

Ive had some ideas stirring in my head for a while. I'm pretty good with my hand as in arts and crafts. I love making things and creating different looks, using different colors, patterns and textures. Detail is something to be appreciated because it is well thought out... With that being said, I'd like to start my own greeting card company.
I've done some research and i can go about this 1 or 2 ways... as a freelance artist or basically the full out entrepreneur. Freelance seems cool but I think a big part of that is photography. I'm not into photography. It's cool and i would love to take classes on it but not right now, that's not what I'm gearing towards. Now that's not all free lance is about... basically i would try to sell my designs to a company. Each company has different guidelines as to what they are looking for and how to submit your work. If they like it, then they buy from you, if not then good luck... no to the next.

My second option is my own damn business! Now this sounds great but success is not that easy! This isn't something that i can start today and be my own boss, living the life in a week. Who knows how long it will take for my line to get off the ground but I believe in my product. The upside in just doing freelance is that the only thing I would have to concern myself with are my designs. Everything else will be taken care of. Being my own boss requires me to wear many hats and in some instances I may not wear them all well... Marketing, Promotions, Distributors, Finances, Manufacturing, and administrative stuff.

I know what kind of card I would like to receive and what kind of card I want to be available for my customers. I can't count how many times I've gone into HallMark or Safeway to look for a card and couldn't find the right one! It really irritates me because their are so many occasions other than calender marked days that deserve cards as well as many other roles people play in life. Mother, Father, Daughter, Brother, Uncle, Niece just don't cut it. What about your best friends mother who has always been "LIKE A MOTHER" to you? How about that new person in your life? Lets try not to scare him/her away with a long, drawn out sentimental card for a birthday or JUST BECAUSE! Has anyone even took a second to maybe ask what the LGBT community would like to have available for them?
Other than different titles being available as well as different occasions, I would like to add my personal hand made touch to these card. I think that colors, textures and detail all play a significant part in sending a message. I know that there are e-cards available on the net but no one can replace a card that says just what you want it to say with just the right amount of love, creativity and skill put into it.

oh snap, she's back...

I'm back!
in the last couple of years i really did want to blog but i never got the chance. A LOT has happened. Lessons learned, hearts broken, friendships reconsidered... just to name a few. I cant catch you up on everything because if I did, it would be giving away the beginning of the book I want to start writing. So, I'll just reflect on the things that happened and give you my POV on it. When I tell you all you can relate, you all are going to R E L A T E! Life is CRAZY but you are DEF blessed. ALWAYS remember that even in your gloomiest of days my friends!
There is always someone going through something worse than you, count your blessings because God WILL NOT steer you wrong.
Ok, let me stop preaching.
My next entry will be about my birthday. THE loneliest one yet to date...

FYI, i dont even look like those pics anymore. time for a blog remodel... ASAP

- G

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If you could have the starring role in one movie what would it be?

I would be Tina Turner in "Whats Love Got to do With It"
I just love that movie. thats a strong woman right there.

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A.Keys - Element of Freedom ( 07 is my fav)

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WORK WORK WORK

seems like all i do is work. my free time is so limited but i hate to plan things. I'm not much of a planner at all. I like to know the general diection of where my day will be spent... thats more than enough for me. i value my alone time a lot more now as well... some people dont understand that alone time is good! GREAT in fact!

i needed a job do badly and now that i have one, i feel like its killin my free time a little bit. i work straight weekends. catch be after 12am most nights... makes dating harder too. A FREE WEEKEND>>> more like a free tickets to invite some hunnies over. SMDH. guess this will weed out the sucky guys who think my work week is a free pass for the hunnies. i see why its so hard for police officers or firefighters to be in committed relationships. all this free time can make a person bored and curious. shit, my job has the abilty to make me curious everytime i clock in... shoot. LMBO but i gotta stay focused. make money and grab a drink after. sounds like a perfect night to me. hehe.

OH SNAP - i totally forgot Ciroc Red Berry is it and Coconut??? m u s t t r y a s a p

sold "as is"

I title this only because you just have to accept people for who and what they are... after an outing with my friends and hearing this and that I feel like my attitude toward friendships i handle more like a guy. i'm not with all the fussing and making sure we speak everyday... just know that i'm there whenever you need me... when i mean whenever i mean it. i wrote this blog after a night out on the town...
Man last night was a trip. I can't believe how fake some people can be. I def try not to become a part of the gossip that goes on between my friends. I try my hardest to stay mutual and in good standing with them. Its only right... Some of my friends I can always count on... Some I wish I counted on more because they are always there... I just don't see it. Others try to be but judge my every step... Then talk about me to others not realizing the only person they are hurting are themselves.
I'm a different kind of friend tho...I've def learned some things so I see thing differently. If I came down to it I would give the shirt off my back for one of my girls, even if they wouldn't for me! I would just hope that I'm not one of those people that seem intimidating in any way. Maybe that's not the word I'm looking for... I would hope people could come to be about anything. Its not always fun having to talk about something that someone did/does that's bothers you but its healthy and helps build a relationship. Although I know I haven't been taking my own advice 100% but its odd that everyone wants to claim to be "grown" but cant/don't handle situations as so... I guess that's part of "growing up"....

just a thought

so i'm posting this a day after i wrote it... i was happy where i was until i found out some shit. but you know when your with someone you still kinda maybe have thoughts about someone you cant really talk about. well these are those but...

I feel like I always start off my blogs with saying sooooo... Lol. I just do. Ima need to change that. Anywho... I've been thinking about this year and all that I have been through. People who I wanted to trust and couldn't, things I set out to do that never got accomplished... The workout plan that was supposed to make me into a total knockout... Haha. Some thing just don't work out. Some things you just have no control over and some you do... Especially guys. Ugh.
There is one guy that I feel like is one that I totally over looked, took for granted and lost for good. That sucks. I'm not really used to rejection... No one is but I didn't really get rejected I think. What happened was that I was dealing with him and someone else @ the same time... I thought that the person I met first was someone worth holding on to and although he was as well I kinda just put him on the back burner. What sucks about this is that guy #1 is a great guy but isn't really giving me what I want and or need. There are still unanswered questions and awkward moments that I don't really know how to solve or even if I want to. With guy #2... Where do I start? He is fine. Definition of TALL, DARK (yum) and HANDSOME... The perfect mix of nice, sexy, sweet, romantic, aggressive... Did I mention sexy. Ugh. How could I be soooooo dumb??!?!? Anywho... I guess what he said to me was that it seemed like I wanted something more serious than what he may have wanted @ the time... Totally wrong might I add. But he slowly backed away and made himself MIA until I confronted him about it... That hurt me. After he was gone of course I realized he was probably one of the best/total packages I had ever met... Although I feel like my husband, granted if I ever do get married, will be west indian but he was (still is ) the acception... Too bad I think about him all the damn time and run into his friends while I'm out. I just want to grab one of them and be like, "SPILL THE SCOOP MAN!! WTF HAPPENED??" That wouldn't work... It wouldn't help because I hate when people do that to me and ultimately it is his choice who he talks to...

kinda old stuff

this is from a couple weeks ago when i went to the MVA and DC Courts to get my DL back in full swing...

- phew. God is def good... I had to go to traffic court again today. I swear I've been "ridin dirty" like since forever. I'm a great driver tho. Never been in an accident... *knocks on wood* hopefully I won't ever be in one... But I like DC court system, they give you time to remedy the situation before they throw you in the slammer. Makes perfect sense to me. The guy that checked me in today was soooo nice and 1539539% helpful! Bless his soul. I could tell he loved his job too. I like pleasant people like that... unknowingly it makes other ppl around them happy...

i'mmmm bizzaccckk

wow. so i def haven't blogged in forever. eek. not good. since April... yikes. i think they should of canceled my account for that one. either way it feels great to be back and to have tons to write about. I wouldn't go as far to say that so much has changed but I can say that my perspective on things have changed... pretty much about love & relationships. for the better tho.
since April ive fallen back from some people and certain things. ive been blessed to meet some people who have been a great influence on me and that i can say will remain in my life for a long time. that always makes me feel good. reassures me i'm not that big of an asshole or that people can handle that part of me. I'm not gonna go on a blog rampage for the day cuz thats wack. trying . so i'll limit myself to 2 today.

turning over a new leaf

so i live by saying " learn from your mistakes"... but when you keep making the same ones over again and people just give you a slap on the hand, you aren't really learning much. I'm def guilty of that. Being the baby in the family kind of gives me some special right of passage to mess up and just be forgiven... or so i thought. Either way... I suppose i've run my passage into the ground and my customers aren't buying it anymore. I knew this day would come but i didnt know at what cost.
so i've managed to hurt people i love. I have the worlds biggest ego which is one of my many imperfections and its hard for me to apologize. I think it is even harder for people to realize that I am sincere and I do things on my own time. I dont react like everyone else does... i dont cry over spilled milk. I just keep to myself and think of the best way to clean it up and stop it from happening again.

so for the record... i'm truely sorry and will be more responsible with my choices. time to turn over a new leaf and do some DAMAGE! ( in a good way)

just a small hiatus

its been a while since my last blog. i always get on other people for not updating their blogs and there i go taking a century off right? lifes been a little stressful and some things have changed. along with those changes came a sense of who i am and how i can be towards others...

everyone is different and that's what makes us an amazing species. i def value individuality and try to embrace it. its hard when someone thinks that you are one way but you really dont mean to come across that way. for the record i cant help it. i am the way i am... the way that ive made people feel is out of my control and all i can do is keep that in mind when i'm around them. I'm perfectly normal ( in a sense). everyone has their flaws and bad habits... mines just may be my smart mouth. its all good and fun with me until someones feelings gets hurt tho. def not intentional ( well not until you get on my bad side).

so all and all, i'm in a good place right now. trying to make things happen and better myself and my relationships even if it means i have to turn on my filter and watch what i say. i can tone it down. it cant hurt to be nice for the sake of keeping good company around. :)

thinking of you...

during the night a little while ago, i'd wake up to music vidoes playing on the T.V (well actually cuz the heat was set to HELL and i couldnt breathe). Not too sure what channel... maybe VH1? anywho... they would play the same mix of music videos and i pretty much almost memorized what was HOT that particular week.

one video/ artist caught my eye. I've seen her before in videos much more up beat and less serious but THIS one song of hers really hit me. I've never stopped to realize how much i could relate to this song until it was like brutally beat into my memory until i woke up to change the channel. Katy Perry gets some shine on my blog.

Katy Perry - Thinking of you. Def my new jam of the week... ehh. maybe not week but it def fits my mood. the video isn't half bad either. she is actually pretty to me... which makes it easier to watch ( not that i am a lesbian but i can admit that some females are very pretty)...

her shoe by the way are killer... kinda reminding me of the pair i just bought. :)

my point is... listen to the song. Katy may have something on her album for you.

{my 2 fav lines}

"Comparisons are easily done

Once you've had a taste of perfection

Like an apple hanging from a tree

I picked the ripest one

I still got the seed"

"...How do I get better

Once I've had the best

You said there's

Tons of fish in the water

So the waters I will test"

on my scene

why? i'm the ^RULE and never the _EXCEPTION. I understand. thats all I do is understand. thats where i think i failing.
by no means do i think that my like for someone will conquer all but it def make me think twice. i have things that i look for and things i require in a guy but to call it sooo early is ridiculous to me. i can't stand that im so understanding and let things slide because i really believe, trust and have feelings for that person.
so for every person that doesnt meet my criteria in my box i must cut them out... i couldn't possibly take them seriously or consider myself being with them. thats how it goes now a days... I think i'ma keep doing what i'm doing tho. results haven't always been great or rewarding but why change it now? i can tweek a couple things here and there but i give chances. make mistakes. learn from them. some people are stuck in their ways & refuse to even see what they might be doing wrong... or how they might be hurting the other person. i'm not perfect but i try. its one thing to call someone inconsiderate when they themselves are a great example.

i hate to think that i wasted my time. my smiles. laughs & gas on someone. i hate to think that my point of view on things just wasnt good enough. never understood. your POV... trash. what i'm writing is trash to some... but its how i feel. by no means is this a man bashing post... its only OPINION.
i like u. liked ... ehhh? cant even call it now.
you make time for people that you want to see. simple. i know i do & i can. not a problem.

sometimes relationships get ill. hints the song* luv the roots.

bittersweet valentine

happy valentines day.

its always full of love, kisses, sex, candy, candles... blah blah blah. i hope all the lovers in the world found their happiness. on my way to finding mine i suppose i think you can never be 100% happy. maybe... its can be possible but so far not for a girl lke me. dont get me wrong i'm happy but golly can i be totally confused and fustrated. but nonetheless still happy... my face lights up and i have a glow but not as often as i'd like.

just some thoughts...

p.s i found my valentine in an unexpected place. well 3 places really... life cant be too bad. :)

i'm it... always

dont you hate it when you feel like you are always the problem? tell me about it. it's so unintentional its not even a joke. idk how my mind blanks out very specific important things to do... which in the end make me look a certain type of way that i hate! i'd like to believe that i'm a caring person but now i feel like my actions are portraying something else... someone else that i hope i did not turn out to be.
ehhh, i hate it. i dont like people being disappointed, upset, or just feel any type of way thats negative towards me. especially people i care about...

i hate it. i gotta like go to a self help workshop or something.

- besides that i hope to have a wonderful weekend. =)

marc & chloe

MARC JACOBS 'Kari' Quilted Satchel

( only available on preorder...)

MARC JACOBS 'Stam' Metallic Leather Satchel

( this just makes the classic even better)

Chloé 'Paddington' Leather Padlock Satchel

( i just love the color... yum)

bored. but this is what i dream of... :) :) :)